Friends...

I was having a conversation last night about friends and trust.

​Once I called what that pastor did to me abuse, my closest friends in life vanished. They didn’t even have the decency to have have a conversation.

We had done life together for over 15 years. It was spiritual. We prayed together, studied the Bible together, retreated together, worshiped together, and raised our kids together.

They rejected me in such a painful way, at such a painful time. How would I ever trust that someone is my friend again?

​I’ve now been in a new Bible study group of women for 3 years. The women are so sweet. They say they love me. They really barely know me. My heart struggles to bond. Will they run if my truth makes them uncomfortable?

What is love? Even in the church, what is love?
Does love deny truth?
Does love abandon victims?
Does love protect abusers?
Does love lie?
Must love always be comfortable?
Does love require hard things?
Does love look ugly and evil right in the face and name it?
Does love pretend everything is perfect and the church can do no wrong?
​Does love let wolves stay in pulpits & devour sheep?

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